dear diaree.
happy fasting month (: fastings been going fine so far.
yesterday evening was fun. went with dewei and james and omar. omar, thank you for being amazing. your words mean alot to me, and thank you for sharing and giving us these opportunities. broke fast at arab street (: if theres any comfort left, it is knowing how united God can make believers.
exams in the past week have been.. surviveable. yea. i think thats all i want to say about it.
im under an immense pressure right now. the only thing thats keeping me up is knowing that its fasting month, and maybe God is giving me a test. its during exam period too. im praying, im praying real hard that God will bring me through this well. my resistance is like down. dear diaree, i dont knw waht to do.
half of me jst wants to throw it away, its their problem, not mine. i dont even like, know them. at all. but the other half of me jst cant refuse her. i feel bad, and sorry for her. i mean. maybe. partially. though i know it isnt my fault, i feel guilty.
then theres the part when i dont knw why im spending so much time so much energy thinking and worrying about her when i dont even know for sure whether she`s for real. how much to believe? i mean. my good friend trusts the guy right, so how bad can he be? but waht reason would she have to lie to me? then again, maybe the guy is jst acting nice. oh gosh, i really dont knw.
im like. lost.
one hundred steps away from anything.
seratus tapak dari segalanya. seribu pelangi tidak bleh mencerahkan langitku ini.
keseorangan.
i dont want to let her be cos i cant bear to, and she seems harmless and all.
but i cant focus. im so screwed. theres amath chem phys and egeog. all have to mug for.
and my stupid mind cant think of anything else.
im sorry to all my friends. i knw i havent been replying your msgs and stuff. i jst need. i dnos waht i need. im jst like, lost.
i dont knw.
friends are like walls.
sometimes they hold you up.
sometimes you lean on them.
but often, it`s enough to know
that they`re standing by.
thank you.
dewei - i swear. i dont knw waht im doing. sighs. thank you for being there.
nikhy - hey. miss talking to you. im sorry. i`ll be okay.
mao - heys. your crap makes me laugh, loser (:
rishik - thanks for teaching me.
marco - lame la. (:
morgan - your handkerchief is beyond gross. eeee.
andre - i like your mona lisa nail many many.
jac.501 - baby, thanks for listening girl.
michelle.501 - thank you for your support. i miss you.
rina.501 - and yoo too. your smses do make me smile (:
james - yoo dont basket me also la walau (:
rena - argh. toona i love you.
my prayer.
in this time
when nothing seems to be so clear,
not how they used to be :
Lord i turn to you.
The almighty, most Merciful,
won't you guide your child?
please dont reject me.
im lost,
and the only thing
that im clinging on to
is your light.
your hope,
diffused,
scattered.
im trying,
dear God.
not to drown,
in this sea of obstacles
you have flooded me with.
for all my past,
all my wrong,
i pray for forgiveness.
nothing will shake my faith,
or stray me from my path to you.
wont you help me, Lord?
if there`s anytime when i needed someone.
wished for something, so bad
that would be now.
wont you bring me close to your heart?
bring me back my wings,
its hard to fly
when im down on knees.
take me to your saving grace.
God, i turn to you.
resistance is down____
*nadia.
will you love her now?
__SMILE (:
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